My name's Katie. I go to school with a bunch of people who have a low opinion of me and have an inability to make their own decisions. I use big words when I'm pissed off... kinda like now... I listen to Jack Off Jill religiously, worship Korn and everything else I listen to should be listed somewhere else. I spend my days in hoodies and baggy trousers because I'm as commercialised as the rest. I haven't seen my shoes for at least a year. I live in a village where everyone "used to know me". I can't ever get into town without a lift or taking the bus - which sucks. If you ever need to find me I'll be at the Pitz on a friday night. The best band I ever saw there was King Prawn on the 6th December 2002 and nothing has compared to it since. I like to go see school bands, only to get steaming drunk with my friends and ignore them completely. I don't care about what i wear. I just take a great interest in what underwear to wear. I got bullied as a kid but didn't actually notice. My mum thinks she bought me up right, I think I'm just narrow minded. My dad expected more - he always will. But they both spoil me and always have done - so no fault there. I'm growing more selfish by the minute. I'm addicted to my computer. I write poems that no one has ever seen. I try to draw but can't. I listen to Geri Halliwell's "Scream if you wanna go faster" album regularly. The only TV i watch is Eastenders, altho I try to watch the news to educate myself. I lack concentration and self control. I'm incredibly naive, but not as much as I was this time last year. I smoke when I feel like it. I'm bored of alcohol and cannabis. I'm always paranoid, so therefore I piss everyone off. I have moments when I don't know what to say, and sometimes I say it but it comes out all wrong. I say what i mean but I don't mean what I say. I hate people who think my business is theirs. I hate myself for critisizing other people without thinking. I can't stand people telling me what to do, but I also wish they would tell me when I'm screwing up. I can't handle responsibility and I can never take the blame. I try to be funny. I hope to be these things: eccentric, unpredictable, weird, happy, unforgettable. I hate it when people are nice to me, and show that they care. Although sometimes I cry when they don't. Suicide is commercialised. They don't hate you, they hate themselves. Sometimes I want to run away from everything and everyone, and sometimes I'm too scared to go.